7:31 wake. check insta and mail   sleep. shut off alarm except 8:10

8:07 wake for real. check fitbit

8:09 slept 7hr 56min sleep score 79. had dream but not vivid enuff to remember

8:10 start emailinf peoplw

8:31 join group and fill our form as people talk

8:41 leave group back to emails

8:48 finish emailing most people. i email david kibum matt micol jean kevin and then dm laub and text schelsey. woo ! ill ask jwest who else to email

8:55 i also text casey and paulson

8:56 update exposures

8:58 i finish i scratch my underarms

8:59 i post a meme to mentos that augustina sent me. forgot to mention that i texted her and Julián this morning. also texted my mom asking her if she could contact alan for me

9:00 i get up and i put on a pair of pants. i go outside put on slippers cross to bathroom

9:01 i pass by mimi and say good morninf. she is by the kitchen sink.

9:02 i enter the bathroom dont change slippers i sit down #1 and 2

9:03 get up wipe flush button pants. theyre normally big but now theyre tight i wanna cry. wash hands and brush teeth

9:05 i finish and i wash my face. i take off my mascara

9:08 finish type down. gonna do shower

9:12 finish 5 4. theres some toilet paper left so i flush the toilet again and gag. six urges to wash / sanitize.

9:13 wash hands

9:16 i barely pooped but somehow that clogged the toilet and idk how to fix it i went outsise to get the plunger thru the laundry room door n tried it out but its not working

9:17 fix it take plunger outside thru laundry room back door. come back wash hands clean toilet seat lid wash hands

9:19 back to room take off slippers

9:20 put on face oil sanitize more oil get on bed

9:21 click teams link

9:23 join meetkng

9:33 end meeting we decide that tomrrow i will just take an absence to go install my thesis

9:35 check instagram gonna make breakfast i think

9:40 i check obey me

9:41 check insta. planning on eating yogurt today

9:42 put on sweatshirt slippers go outside to kitchen trashcan

9:46 finish 4 3 3 four urges. go to fridge get yogurt

9:47 go get bowl drop yogurt lid on ground five irges one more. the seal hasnt been broken so theres no yogurt on it but still freaking out. three more urges

9:49 go to pantry get museli back to counter pour museli in timer goes off sink

9:53 finish 543. i go add honey and blueberries to my yogurr. delicious. i add more honey n eat at the counter

9:56 pause eatong microwave

9:59 finish 6 6 6. nine urges rifht as i finish was too panicked during. three more. i want to cry so bad oh my god. theres stains in the microwave now oh my god

10:00 back ag counter gonna force myself to eat food three urges two more

10:01 bowl in sink yogurt and blueberries in fridge. gonna do dryer then wash dish. put museli away now

10:02 bathroom dont change slippers wash hands no ritual

10:04 dryer wirried ant wet hands

10:07 finish 5 4 4 five urges and four after

10:11 was on insta shower now. texted ace and kon abt who won the picrew challenge. ace’s got the most votes on it looking like me

10:15 finish 5 3 four urges

10:18 two urges. gonna do trash can walk out to kitchen

10:22 finish 4 3 3 five urges. sitting on grey couch. enjoying looking at mimi’s painting area. her next painting is of three hooded figures like in a satanic ritual with the facebook instagram and twitter icons for faces. they are surrounding an iphone that is burning the american flag. the statue of liberty is in the bg writing “there is more good than evil” in the night sky. the amojnt of excitement i have for seeing her work on this is Insane. i cannot wait to see it done. its amazing. i love it

10:25 schelsey texts back and asks if a friday is available i say yes. timer goes off sink time

10:29 finish 5 4 3. four urges

10:32 was on insta microwave time

10:36 finish 5 4 3 six urges. wendy came outside from her room and i wished her happy birthday. she says shes feelinf 22 but still nauseous. she puts bread in the toaster and goes back to room

10:37 its done and she comes back out grabs plate purs it on. sam walks outside his room and goes to the bathroom. he wishes us good morning and walks thru the bathroom to the laundry room and starts his laundry

10:38 i notice wendy is putting butter on her toast. i ask why since she is lactose intolerant and is trying to make her stomach less distressed right now not worse, thusly the bread. she is ashamed and i say im not mad !!!! she laughs and goes back to her room

10:39 i wash my dish and put it in the dishwasher along with the spoon. i hear sam start his shower. time to do trash again

10:43 finish 4 3 2 and two urges. milner walks out of their room and gives me a hug and a kiss on my head. i say congrats on getting up before noon and they r equally excited. they go to their fridge and get cold brew and go to my fridge and add water to it before sitting down with me at the kitchen table. they say its the first time theyve been awake before noon in a week and a half

10:44 wendy comea out and asks milner if they can move their animal carcasses to somewhere else in the backyard so they dont smell during her party. milner does taxidermy btw. they say sure and she goes back to her room

10:45 alarm goes off

10:46 sink

10:50 finsih 5 4 2. it felt better but only cuz milner was there so id be freaking oht withoht them. sam finishes his shower. milner tells me abt hyper intelligent species. i say i love octopus even tho theyre smart. theyre delicious

10:53 milner tells me abt plans for my dnd character. they r trying to hold a dnd session on sunday i say sure

10:54 microwave. sam walks out of the bayhroom to his room

10:58 finish 4 4 3 four urges one more. milner asks if they can play music i say yes. sam walks out his room to the bathroom goes to laundry room gets laundry walks back out.

10:59 look at texts

11:00 text schelsey back she asks for friday after 3 and i say ill write it down i make a separate note for studio visits i check insta kon responded to my meme abt eren. amazing

11:01 dryer time. milned says theyre making a bacon mushroom scramble and if i want any i say yes. walk to laundry room

11:05 finish 5 4 2. i give in and wipe down the sink with a paper towel and flush it. door is open so i hear wendy and mimi came out to talk in the kitchen. sam came out briefly too i think but i was habituating in bathroom. milner is at the counter prepping and is gonna make us a group scramble. happy. three urges but baby ones. i sit at kitchen table

11:06 milner gets two double yolks in a row. mimi goes to the living room and sits on the grey couch.

11:08 check isnta kon asks ace and i with we have astrazeneca vax in usa and i say idk. timer goes off shower time go back to bathroom

11:12 finish 5.5 4 wet from sams shower four urges and three after. so tired. milner starts cooking outside ( door is open to bathroom ) and i sit on the toilet lid

11:15 ace is sad abt having laugh lines so i reply and send photos of my forehead wrinkles. timer goes off dryer time. mimi talks abt her job interview outside and says it went well

11:16 dryer

11:19 4 3 1. six urges. i check mail and go to my room take off slippers and open my laptop. gmail is down ??? 

11:20 i check and it says i had a meeting with dr wang at 10 that no one told me abt. i email back apologizing. i wonder why i didn’t get a notification earlier or a text. i update my exposures

11:27 finish updating   2 dryer 2 trash can 2 sink 2 shower 2 microwave. ten left. fuck

11:28  go put on slippers head outside.  milner announces eggs r ready i come sit down with them and momi at the table

11:30 i get up go to room get water glass go get water sit back down

11:31 i finish eating. what tf am i gonna do wgen i stop takkng notes of my day. isk what ill do with myseld. milner says that the bacon is cooling n then we can Feast

11:35 wendy comes out her room n brings her playe to the dishwasher. we talk abt doing dabs. i get up to do trash can but theres too much happening i cant habituate

11:36 i check email but no email from dr wang. im gonna email megan maybe and ask whats going on

11:38 milner brings out bacon. i split the last one with mimi

11:40 finish. so fucking good. mimi and i agree that bacon is art

11:44 i email megan abt dr wang

11:45 i complain abt psychiatrists out loud. mimi has never seen one. ok gonna do the shower and dryer again at least

11:49 finish 2 1 2. three urges. walk ourside mimi milner clesning gonna help

11:51 help put rinsed dishes into dishwasher go to bathroom wash hands knock toothbrush to flior three urges

11:52 shower

11:55 finish 5 4. two urges. i walk to my room. wendy is talking a friend at the door and mimi is still at tje sink. take off slippers

11:56 make bef

11:58 finish making my bed n putting away my clothes. move my laptop to desk and sit there

12:00 check mail megan says she will see what was going on with dr wang this morning. update exposures 8 to go

12:01 join group

12:58 leave group we practiced interoceptives i think its spelled. they never bother me that much but i think i’m more of a mental / emotional person when I’m panicking so I don’t think too much about my somatic symptoms

1:00 i join meeting

1:11 leave meeting with megan. apparently i DID have dr wang today i just completely missed it on my schedule lol. she says not to worry since i’ve never done that before and it just was a fluke.

1:12 im gonna try doing a nail special and if i dont like it ill just paint it blue

1:27 i do it pretty good this time around. i like it ! it will always be streaky but its fucking nail polish not paint ofc it will be. i really like it

1:28 gonna do a few more exposures i think


1:30 outside put on slippers. sam is watching something on his laptop for class. mama sent me alans email. milner is working on dnd stuff in the gc. wendy sends us a playlist for her bday that we can add to. excited to cause chaos. trash can

1:33 finish 3 2 1. positive mood again with sam in the room ! he is playing water sort puzzle.

1:34 go back ti eoom rk check exposures

1:36 fart and email jean back abt meeting. write fown her times in my other note

1:37 close nail polish that i see is open. look at exposures

1:38 1 trash can 2 sink 2 microwave 1 shower 1 dryer. exit room didnt take off slippers go to sink

1:42 finish 4 3 2. two urges. scheming how to cover up a spot on one of mt ring fingers

1:45 shower

1:48 finish 5 2. feeling good !!

2:01 join group. amelia looks so good i tell her i like her makeup with a heart to be gay. she responds with more hearts. modern romance


11:03 been watching riverdale wiht ace and kon. theres people outside but i dont want to see them so ive stayed in my room




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