8:20 gm had dream but its gone. too many alarms. exited all of them n finally got Up up at 8:18

8:28 checked mail caught up on obey me checked instagram


8:32 joined check in

8:46 left. it’s also megan’s last day! so excited for her cuz I know she’s been here a while. i check email to see if ive gotten the outcome assessments yet but no luck there

8:48 i get an email that my request for extra tickets is approved.i go to sign in but have to reset my password

8:49 i reset my password and text mama before i start filling in the info

8:53 i finish texting mama. she proposes inviting tio gus or tio junior. i send a text to tio junior

8:55 i finish filling out everyone’s info except tio junior cuz he hasnt responded. i start typing it down

8:56 i fart

8:59 finish typing gonna text Julián


9:07 was on insta

9:08 got up put on slippers went to bathroom sat down pee

9:10 checked mail and zoned out. checked seniorscramble website on mobile

9:12 got up wipe flush wash hands brush teeth

9:14 finish wash face go to room take off slippers

9:15 change underwear put on face oil get back in bed

9:16 get laptop check email


9:20 join meeting with megan

9:35 leave meeting. she sent me the outcome assessments. we talked a bit about me discharging and we did a risk assessments. i do still feel like a burden and I have had thoughts of suicide in the past month but much less than before and have not had any plans

9:37 gonna go get laptop charger. i reach over the side of my bed to grab it from my bag on the floor and plug it in

9:38 i get back onto my laptop after plugging it in. gonna do outcome forms now

9:40 i scratch my ear while i fill out the first form

9:41 second form

9:43 onto third form

9:45 fourth

9:48 fifth

9:53 sixth

9:54 i stretch. feels good. my muscles are so tight

9:59 got distracted on insta. ace sent kon and i a danganronpa meme. it was good. i look at skinny people and feel motivated to work out again. if i get this internship then i will definitely work out during it like i did at craft contemporary

10:00 back to filling out

10:02 onto the seventh form. these r taking forever

10:05 eight form

10:06 i check my messages before i start. nothing new

10:10 onto ninth form

10:11 i pause and go to instagram, then go to facebook messenger and respond to nacho slop group. we are meeting at 8pm

10:12 back to insta briefly before back to laptop

10:13 need to eat feeling faint. might go grab ensure

10:15 dont grab ensure. mimi’s friend zaira is here and she’s kind but i dont wanna talk. idk why mimi is letting her over (zaira is vaccinated) and hanging out with people if mimi herself isn’t vaccinated. sam said a bit ago that mimi had a vaccine appointment but then didn’t go because she didn’t trust the vaccine since the FDA hadn’t approved it. sam joked that mimi has done plenty of drugs that the FDA hasn’t approved. Anyways.

10:17 onto tenth form

10:19 onto eleventh

10:20 finish forms ! that took 40 minutes jesus. i stretch my back again. i think zaira and mimi left. gonna go do exposures and make breakfast

10:22 tio junior messages me that he can’t make my graduation cuz of work. i say not to worry. i message mama and ask if it can just be the family and she says yes

10:25 i request the tickets for mama papa and Julián

10:26 i check mail. i also have an email from Active Cultures asking for an interview. i should respond.

10:27 i click on a registrar email and update typing here

10:29 i fart

10:31 check oasis. all is good

10:33 i check more emails. i missed the deadline to submit work for roski online commencement but its ok

10:39 i fill out the Active Cultures interview surveys and i email back bianca confirming that I did the surveys. ok. food time. im so hungry



10:42 i go outside put on slippers. i notice my leg hair. when im skinnier and have top surgery ill feel better abt my leg hair but rn i feel ugly. i do feel more masc tho

10:43 i throw away old food from my fridge and take out my eggs ans mushrooms. i feel my legs squish together. i havent felt that in so long. i hate it. wendy is working on blender stuff at the kitchen table. she’s teaching herself the program and is exhausted

10:44 trash time

10:48 finish 2 0 1. milner comes out of their room and says hello. they ask wendy abt blender. i try some puzzle pieces but they dont work

10:49 i close the trash can lid cuz it smells. wendy started two weeks ago and says she’s learning p quickly. i should do shower next. milner os making coffee and i smell it

10:50 in bathroom. gonna do shower

10:53 finish 3 1. go back ourside. milner is sitting by wendy at the table. wendy made a breakthrough and is super excited. i should chop mushrooms

10:56 pause chopping mushrooms kitchen sinktime

10:59 2 1 0. choppinf mushrooms and slices bread durinf habituation cuz i was at a 0. i wanna multitask rn

11:02 timer ring but i put oil in the pan gonna cook

11:10 i sit dowm n eat. sourdough toast, mushroom and sausage scramble, and spring mix. so good

11:20 wendy finishes her project !

11:22 i realize this might be mimi’s spring mix. i say that out loud and milner and wendy laugh

11:37 texting Julián talk to milner wendy abt dying hair and graduation

11:40 clean up a bit gonna wash dishes after

11:41 in bathroom toilet seat. sit down on ground to habituate. its gonna be either a 1 or a 0 so im just vibing. check insta

11:44 1 1 0. feeling epic. gonna do dryer next and get 1 round in so hopefully two rounds today

11:48 look at shoes online after texting Julián

11:49 start dryer but stop. 1 0 0. dont need to wait three min. gonna clean up

11:57 clean up going into room. decide not to get new shoes oll wear my heels


11:59 go take risperdal and drink my water

12:00 get on bed and check messages on phone. look at message from mama to Julián and i

12:01 realize time join group. pull up weekend planning form

12:06 finish filling out form and scratch my neck

12:09 send my info in the chat just in case

12:10 i look at myself in photobooth and make sure i look cute

12:58 say bye to everyone and leave group. gonna miss everyone sm. told christian to hmu to talk abt anime in the future for sure. unsure where amelia went

12:59 go on phone check insta

1:00 notice time fill in exposures

1:02 enter meeting

2:03 enter group

2:13 leave group. everyone is so nice. gonna finish makeup and do my hair then write down check out



1:17 fart. finish texting ace abt reigen. they do not appreciate my thirst

1:30 go to bathroom change into contacts

1:23 finish back to room put on deoderant grt dressed

1:26 finish sit down at desk

1:27 text mike

2:16 go to wendy’s bathroom dont see flat iron

2:17 i text wendy abt her hair iron. go back to room stand there for a bit. dont wanna take selfies til my hair is done today

2:19 go outside with water glass get water drain the glass

2:22 sitting in living room working on puzzle. get notif n realize i forgot to get the extra AP in obey me. check mail new email from skirball

2:25 email back skirball abt second interview

2:46 sam comes back he tells me sbt going to the getty villa

2:50 wendy finishes her meeting n comes and gets me her iron. i go to my bathroom n make my hair sticky outy

2:57

4:39 arrive with anan. their friend is inside

5:30 end with anan. cant come over cuz scramble meeting

5:32 come downstairs see jackie. she is sitting outside ice on her leg.

5:35 anan and their friend leave. i stay to talk with jackie

5:37 gbenga and his friend arrive. he hugs me hello

5:39 say bye to jackie and gbena and gbenga’s friend cuz meeting. i walk back to my car

5:41 in car

5:42 swatbelt

5:43 drive

6:32 arrive

6:35 got caught up talking with mimi in the hallway go to wendy’s room she says time to meetin i run to room join meeting

7:03 play obey me

7:59 doing code stuff

8:20 pause code stuff for nacho slop