FRIDAY - JUNE 4




12:01 im gonna check insta less. i was checking a lot cuz of the housing bid but now im just keeping track of how much im on it cuz i have to write down every time im on it. im gonna uhhhhhhh. idk

12:08 i play bubble pop

12:09 obey me

12:13 fart

12:23 finish obey me. gonna set alarm for it. getting the lucifer bday ur heehee. gnite

8:00 i wake up and catch up on obey me

9:36 i wake up again. weird dream gonna be brief. there was a battle and we were planning it out a very specifically designed house. a girl was locked on a room jutting out of the second floor on the right. pink walls on the outside but just that room alone. i ran through it. there were challenges and other people. there was a dream before this that i’m forgetting.

everyone is in a big room together with sunken floors like halfway between a room and an open roof basement. we are drinking from a drink cart. theres a bit of alcohol left and wendy says to just pour it into the coke but we r out of mixers. i look at a big mason jar like fishbowl and its not coke. this skinny bottle isnt coke either. someone takes the alcohol and drinks it

everyone starts singing songs from Cats. some people hate it and start to leave. theres people i recognize in the crowd that i’ve never seen before. a guy with buzzed very coily red hair that’s slightly overgrown with thick sideburns. he is the most familiar. a guy with brown hair longer and a balding top but with q widow’s peak. not fully balding but beginning his battle. he has a beard i think. a woman who i can no longer describe. brown hair in a bun. reminds me of mary kelly but younger and less exaggerated hair. she is running around.

the girl stuck in her room is wearing pink pajamas with white cloth frills on the collar and sleeves. she sits up in her bed. sometimes her arms are crossed. she has brown curly hair that is almost waist length. she waits.




the previous dream had roski students in it and a dark cliff area with slopes. looked like a more realistic and rougher scene of the weird rock hill area of Oh The Places Youll Go. theres one major rock that bulbs out in the djstance. it’s sandy limestone and there is grass on top. we are on a plateau. it’s evening with no stars but i can see perfectly. leor says something. that’s all i remember




last dream i left the basement party and go to a mall. i need a haircut. i am running through the mall. the only place is a supercuts and its on the other side of the mall. i keep making slight right turns until i reach a major fork in the mall and i go right again. it’s open air so the chairs r just out in the mall area and it’s one row of twelve chairs six on each side facing back to back. on the right side there’s a girl with black hair with plenty of green highlights that’s in a short trendy mullet. she is cutting the hair of a guy with greenish hair on top and a severe undercut. i want her to cut my hair.




the chairs are parallel to where im standing and behind them while facing me there is a set of chairs with screens. a woman with shoulder length blond hair in a ponytail directs me over there. she and everyone else are wearing black aprons with a red logo on them.

it’s like a photobooth where you connect your phone and upload picture to give a sense of your current hair. there’s fun things you can do like give yourself eyelashes or change your lips. i give myself eyelashes. the options for changing my lips included a septum piercing, a smiley piercing, a bandaid on my lip, a faded mark that looks like a bow with the rest of the lip darker than the mark, and another that was like dark tattoo cracking out from where your lips met and had a dark burgundy lip color that stained in a fade going down to the bottom. the lip options all had a smooth big bottom lip but most matched my lips perfectly. the bow mark one erased my lips completely though and i was left with just a dark stain and a bow mark.

most of the eyelash additions looked terrible but sometimes it worked out. the woman comes over that directed me there. her name is chelsea. she asks if im done i say yes im messing around. she says she has some older ladies she has to take care of and she might only be able to do half of my hair today. i realize she is my hairstylist and am disappointed. i say nonono its ok i just need a trim. she nods and i get up and follow her around the photobooth. i wake up before i sit down on a chair.




after i wake up irl i went onto instagram. i checked obey me again




9:59 i got up n got dressed. i at first just put on another pj shirt but i decide i want to go to h&m and get some plain tshirts. i put on a different shirt and pants i was gonna take with me anyways for work.

10:02 i go to the bathroom and sit down and pee and poop. i start to write down my dream

10:26 i finish writing. i meant to be brief and then i was not. im scared of opening my laptop because im terrified of getting stuck in an apartment loop

10:47 ive packed up my stuff and am eating a concha. also put everything into my new wallet. gonna put stuff in my car then say bye to mama

11:00 ok all packed up. said bye to mama. On my way! to pacific city

11:20 arrive. stressed. ill be ok. walking to h&m

11:21 on escalator. terrified of escalators and elevators

11:36 back in car. got three tshirts and a linen button down that i liked. couldve fit xs but got s so that way its roomier. onto car wash

11:37 i forgot to get parking validated. going to philz

11:43 at philz. getting iced tea

11:46 i need to change my mhi appointment ill do that downstairs. its in the middle of the staff meeting. i found out by checking my mail

11:47 stressing out abt psych meeting. ill call asap once i get my tea. ill do it outside even

11:49 sitting outside philz. tea so good. dr davis’s office isnt free til noon to call. gonna get more stuff done than call again

11:52 back in car. car wash time. gonna drive

12:11 in car wash. guy was really nice told me abt how he had a spiderweb pattern shaved into his head but had to redye it for work.

the car wash is soothing. i hate not seeing parts of the time but the noiseS calm me down. there might be things hiding but the fact that im getting clean helps with the paranoia. wanna take care of my car. maybe ill pay to have the scrape buffed out

12:13 reachinf end of wash ok bye

12.14 i park. gonna see id i have a towel to wipe

12:20 i use my squeegee to wipe my car. i use the little vacuums to clean the inside. much better ! cvs time

1:20 arrive at usc village. there was an accident on the 110 so it took longer than normal. almost done with my iced tea. i ahve to pee

1:26 the pharmacist needs to talk to me abt my meds so i cant pick up yet. she will be back at like 1:50. im gonna go call dr davis outside

1:28 outside

1:30 i call dr davis and leave a message

1:31 i share wendy’s contact with ren

1:33 i text wendy that im here but at the village