12:53 ive been playing the sims nonstop. i watched a documentary about the knoedler gallery scandal and then the college admissions scandal with my parents. the light turned off downstairs with its timer and i came upstairs rn. bo waits for me so we can come upstairs together. he whines and me when i work at night because he wants me to go bed and sleep and he was doing that earlier. he jumps onto the bed and takes over the middle.

12:54 i turn on my lamp and set my stuff down on the bed and go take my plastic bag to the bathroom. i sit down and pee.

12:56 i got up wiped and flush. i wash my hands ten seconds no ritual. my toothbrush is out of battery so i plug in the charger and set it to charge. i wash my hands again ten second no ritual and leave

12:58 i walk back to my room and grab my charger to plug in my phone.

1:00 i take my medications out of my bag and take them with the water glass i brought up with me. i start typing my day while i sit down on the ground by my bed

1:01 i fart

1:11 i finish typing. im too tired to go through texts and stuff because i was focusing so much on the sims yesterday so i just type out a summary of the major events rather than finding timestamps.

1:12 i catch up on obey me

1:13 i grab my laptop and save my game in sims before i forget then go back to obey me. i fart twice

1:17 i have a lot to catch up on in obey me. i decide to play a lot more sims tomorrow and i get in bed and under the covers. i turn off my light. bo leans up next to me and falls asleep

1:26 i catch up in obey me. i check my mail. i check instagram

2:10 ive been at instagram looking at egirls. i need to lose weight. i feel fat

2:11 i check my housemates group chat but its something related to the volume. sleep goodnight

2:40 bo jumps off the bed and paws at the side of my door. i get out of bed and go downstairs and open the front door. he gets out and pees

2:42 he comes back and i close the door. he goes to his bowl in the dining area and drinks water. i go get water and stir in some magnesium to help me fall asleep

2:44 we go back upstairs. he is by my side at all times and only leaves rooms or goes upstairs when i do. we are inseparable

2:45 i get back into bed and he jumps on. i grab my phone to write down our escapade

2:46 i catch up. my stomach is grumblinf. goodnight

12:06 wake up. bo was asking me to walk him earlier but i had sleep paralysis and couldn’t move. my dad walked him instead. i checked my mail and instagram. i had a dream but when i woke up n had sleep paralysis it left my memory and then i fell back asleep until waking up just now

12:08 my mom walks in. i realize bo is back and asleep next to me on my bed - usually he leaves and stays downstairs after being walked. my mom tells me that she and my dad are going to hang out with tío junior and get tacos in LA. the taco truck has homemade flour tortillas. i say no to joining because im half asleep.

12:12 spencer texts me about hanging out today. i say Yes

12:14 i’m awake more and decide i actually really want to go. i text mama asking if they left because i didn’t hear anyone

12:15 i realize i can just walk downstairs. i leave bo on my bed and leave my room barefoot and come downstairs. my dad is standing up and my mom is on the couch. i ask if i can go and my dad says yes and laughs. my mom checks her phone and laughs that i texted her

12:16 i go and get a glass of water. papa asks if theres anything i want to eat. i ask if i can eat the donut in the bag on the counter and my mom says it’s for me. i eat it. it’s from my favorite donut place. papa says there’s also bacon but if we are going to eat tacos i don’t want to fill up

12:18 i talk with my dad. we r figuring out logistics. we are leaving at 1 to start driving and he asks me if i want to go to LA right after that or come home with them after. i decide to go to LA

12:20 i go up to my room and change out of my pjs and into the day clothes i brought just in case. i go to the bathroom and take off my overalls and sit down and pee.

12:21 i go #1 and 2

12:23 i stand up wipe and flush. i wash my hands ten seconds no ritual. i brush my teeth. i take a break and text tío junior that i’m coming with my parents to get tacos with him. he’s excited

12:25 i finish brushing and i wash my face. i put on my face oil and i start to put my toiletries in their plastic bag

12:26 i make sure i have everything and i leave my bathroom

12:27 i go back to my room and set down my toiletries and make my bed. bo refuses to get off my bed so he dances around while i move my covers around. somehow i make it happen

12:28 i sit down and unplug my phone charger. i plug in my laptop charger and plug in my laptop. i take my medication and pajamas and put them in my bag

12:29 i sit down and play the sims for a bit

12:35~ bo gets off my bed and goes to his bed in the landing

12:45 my dad comes up and asks if i’m ready to leave. i say yes and i save my game and unplug everything and put it in my bag.

12:47 i leave my room. i pet bo and scratch behind his ears a little bit

12:48 i go downstairs. papa and mama are getting ready. they ask if i want to take any food home. i decide to take a croissant to-go but nothing else since i know it will probably go bad before i have the ability to cook it.

12:50 we start heading out the door. papa is coming with me and mama is going alone. i’ll head out on my own when we finish eating with tío.

12:52 we head out. i’m worried papa will see the skateboard decks that tío junior gave me but he doesn’t notice. i play no doubt for papa and i and keep the volume at a nonprime number

1:36 mama texts us that she’s in line. papa texts her that we are two minutes away

1:37 i turn onto the street where the taco cart is and i see mama and tío junior in line. tío has dodger jones johnson with him !!

1:38 we arrive. springdale exit was weird so we took bolsa chica to the 405. it takes us a few minutes for us to find parking so i have to do two uturns on the street by the taco cart.

1:40 i find parking and do an Amazing parallel parking job. papa is very impressed that i fit so well into the spot.

1:41 we get out and get in line. i act like i have never met dodger before lmao. we all chat and catch up. dodger is chewing all sorts of things on the ground and we talk about how strong dogs’ stomachs are. we talk about how my dad is getting the vaccine and i say i’m getting it soon thanks to usc. tío junior is getting it soon

1:46 mama goes to get us esquites from a different cart while we wait.

1:48 she texts the group and asks if we want everything on it. i only saw the text way later. i get paranoia around this time but i stay quiet

1:50 she comes back. she got one with tapatío and one with tajín. tío junior takes the tajín one and mama papa and i share the tapatío one. we talk some more about graduation and it being in person. i manage to work in doing tattoos in the future and get my parents to agree that i could do it on the side. it’s perfect because when tío and i hung out he said he would get me a tattoo kit and an apprenticeship if i got my parents to agree. i really made the perfect plan happen.

2:00~ we are in the front of the line. the workers look stunned that there’s so many people. my mom asks if they sell the tortillas and they say yes but not right now. the guy is frying the cheese on the grill and then putting the tortilla over it. i’m so excited. dodger is trying to get into the trashcan underneath the cart

2:05~ they finish the order in front of us. it takes a few minutes for them to get more meat and avacados. tío junior orders first and gets two tacos.

2:10~ we order. mama gets her without radishes and i get two without onions. my dad gets two without mayonnaise. i get an horchata too.

2:15~ we all get our food and walk over to some grass to eat. dodger starts playing with the grass as we settle down. mama hands us hand sanitizer. we all just eat and talk. mama found the place on tiktok so i bet the video she saw went viral and everyone came from the app. she and my uncle think that the tortillas are too thick but i say that theres so much in the taco that if it was thinner it would probably fall apart.

2:30~ we finish eating. tío junior and i save our second tacos for later but papa eats both of his. we talk about going to mexico again soon and getting tacos in tecate after going to valle de guadalupe. my mom talks about how when she was little she would eat oysters on the side of the street in mexico city. tío talks about how he would run away and his dad would come find him and he’d be getting tacos a few blocks away. they talk about visiting abuelita chepina’s grave recently. i need to visit her but i’m scared of asking my mom for the cemetery address.

2:45~ we start to pack up. mama keeps the white bag the food came in because it’s still pristine and still and could be used for a gift. tio junior gets dodger ready to go and mama and papa go to throw away the trash. tío is talking about how he drove megan’s car here and it’s a stick shift. he asks mama if she wants to test drive and she’s so excited. she hasn’t driven stick in so long and wants to so bad. she wants a hybrid stick car but my dad tries to explain how it wont work.

2:46 i text ace and kon that maybe we can hang out tonight if i finish the meeting and some sims in time

2:50~ i say bye for real and head out. i put on a new no doubt album and keep the volume on a nonprime number. i get on the 710 south on accident but get off quickly and get on the 710 north.

3:37 i finish parking in the backyard

3:39 i read texts from cameron. i text him back and ask him wtf the title of our group show is

3:40 text mama check instagram. sanitize twice

3:42 i get out and go inside. i take my taco and my croissant with me

3:43 i enter the house from the back door in the hallway and change into my living room slippers. i walk into the kitchen. sam is there washing dishes and i say hi

3:44 sam asks me how being home was. i talk a bit about bo. i eat some croissant.

3:45 sam is also cleaning the stove even though it’s not his chore :(. he doesn’t have to do that but wendy and milner aren’t cleaning the kitchen regularly. i grab a paper towel and wipe off the counter from the croissant crumbs. i take a deep breath and i open the pantry with my bare hand and put my fried onions away. they were left out a bit ago and i forgot before i left for home.

3:46 i go drop my stuff off and grab my water glass. i open the fridge barehanded and pour in water in my glass. i remember i need to take my effexor. i go and get another small dish and i open a new gel capsule and pour the contents into the dish. it’s hard to measure and i joke about needing a coke spoon.

3:47 i go to my room don’t change slippers snd grab the necklace i bought from an. it’s got a tiny spoon locket that i might use. i go back outside. sam asks me what i’m doing and i explain my meds. he starts talking to me about the playmobil movie he and wendy and jamie watched yesterday. wendy walks in and joins in. apparently there are no people of color and it was just a giant ad for all the different playmobil sets you can buy. kenan thomson was in it though idk how to spell but he played a white pirate. wendy comments that my locket looks like a coke spoon

3:48 the spoon doesn’t work well but i grab a shotglass anyways n try n scoop some medication into it. it use my nails too and that works better. then i combine the two remnants of medication together into one small dish from the past two days. that way i’ve taken a 3/4 dose for three days by the end of it. then i’ll do a 1/2 dose for a few days.

3:49 i open the fridge barehanded and i pour water into the glass and take the shot before the meds stick to the bottom. it takes two shots of water. i put the water away in the fridge and go to wash the shotglass. it has a crack already and when i use the sponge it breaks in half. i throw it away

3:50 i eat the gel capsule it came it. i like how it gets gummy in my mouth. i text spencer that i’m back

3:51 i bring my water glass with me and i change slippers. i grab the bag of gelatin capsules i have with me in case i cant control the urge to overdose and i need to take fake pills.

3:52 i sit on my bed finally. i sanitize and eat some fake pills because i like the gelatin. the sanitizer gets knocked over but its ok. i start typing down my day. at first i’m not going to type it down but i decide otherwise. i have a burst of energy.

4:07 spencer texts me that they are dealing with an issue really fast and i say no worries. i keep typing

4:15 whole side of my face hurts so bad. piercing pain like a thick needle

4:16 crack my neck. i have to stop cracking my neck so much

4:37 have been on instagram. looking at bradtroemel’s new insta acct. crazy stuff

4:38 check texts. spencer texted me at 4:34 abt being ready. i respond yes

4:39 spencer says theyll text me the link for zoom over discord. i say give me a sec

4:40 i go close my door and back to bed i open laptop plug it in to my charger that i plug into the wall

4:41 i exit out of the sims and save my game one more time. i open up discord and it updates

4:43 i join zoom and say hi with spencer !! i catch up on obey me

4:50 we talk a bit about how we both slept so long today. spencer goes onto funimation and we joke about a new anime about an incel. spencer is telling me about their vampire nurse oc. i love it.

4:51 we start playing hetalia. it takes a few times. i’m typing down my day and spencer is drawing. it’s relaxing being on call.

5:05 i scratch my arm

5:40 mimi texts me about watching drive to survive tonight. i say maybe because i want to play more sims after the zoom meeting today

it’s just harder when i went home because i don’t use my phone when i’m with my parents which is a good thing !!! so a summary:

5:46 i crack my neck

5:49 im almost done track my day and catching up. spencer is proud of me

5:55 spencer and i decide this is the last episode

5:59 i scratch my ear

6:00 wendy texts the group about the meeting. i say im joining. jamie says she’s in the bath. i keysmash

6:01 i say bye to spencer and end the call. i join wendy’s zoom call. her and sam are choosing blazers for her to wear

6:03 jamie joins us. she is no longer in the bathtub. we ask jamie about her going to the zoo

6:09 we talk about jamies love life. we start doing intros in the zoom now that zack and eloise are here

6:17 i crack my neck

6:58 we end the meeting. i can’t say what we talked about >:)

6:59 i watch danganronpa tiktoks kon and ace sent me. kon also sent an attack on titan tiktok thirsting for reiner. op is right

7:02 i check my email for my rogers hw. i have to do exposure trials for the bathroom cabinet and sweep an area of the house still.

7:03 i get up and grab my water change slippers and go into the kitchen. it smells good. milner is there cooking prosciutto. i get water barehanded.

7:04 milner offers a cheese puff and i accept. i eat it. it’s a bit burnt on the bottom but not terrible. milner says they forgot to salt the dough but i can’t tell.

7:05 i drink more water after i finish eating and then go to my bathroom. i set my water down on the kitchen counter and use my wrist to turn on the light. i change slippers enter and close the door with my arm.

7:06 i sit down pee and start typing

7:10 i finish and get up and wipe. i use my nonwipe hand get toilet paper and use it to flush. i go wash my hands ten seconds no ritual.

7:11 i take a break. i set my timer for three minutes. i start my first round of exposure for the bathroom cabinet and place both hands on the mirror for fifteen seconds.

7:14 i finish. i exit the bathroom for a second. i go to my room change slippers and log it into my laptop

7:15 i sit there. i decide that i should try and do a fridge exposure. milner and sam are talking outside. sam wants to study more tonight. ben wendel is coming over which means they and milner will perform the art piece “ two white people argue about cultures and issues that they have no legitimate base to speak about much less grasp the complexity of the issue “

7:16 i go outside. milner is cooking onions in a giant skillet. they are making an onion tart. i tell sam i can come over and work with him again tomorrow. he says he wrote three pages yesterday but only two and a half were good. he wants to write another three.

7:17 i get more water barehanded and sit down for a bit. we all chat some more. sam goes back into his room

7:21 new fridge exposure. touch both hands ten seconds

7:25 i finish. anxiety 3 then 2

7:27 new cabinet. so smudgy

7:31 3 then 1

7:32 boost email to jwest. brain stressed. calming down. typing out past few minutes

7:38 augustina texts will check after this exposure. i start

7:42 finish habituation. 1 then 0

7:44 i text augustina and post a meme she sent me to mentos. we talk about how danny from game grumps got outed as a groomer on reddit. i was never into game grumps but i know they were big

7:46 start

7:49 finish. 2 then 1. one more left

7:50 i play obey me. i hear wendy outside asking if there’s anyone in the bathroom. i open the door with my overalls and say no im just doing exposure therapy. she asks if she can go and do her laundry i say sure

7:51 wendy walks in with her laundry hamper and through the bathroom. she starts a load in the laundry room then walks back out.

7:53 i bite at my lip. sam sends me an article about pete davidson getting court ordered protection from his fake wife. this whole saga is amazing

7:54 last exposure

7:57 finish. 1 then 0. change slippers exit bathroom

7:58 change slippers go into room. sanitize. i have to im sorry

7:59 text sam. milner is playing white dad music. sam wants to close his door but doesn’t want to be rude. i text ace and kon about starting to stream later tonight. kon is free in the next hour so we will start then

8:00 i change slippers go outside and use my nail to open the broom closet. i grab the broom and dustpan and i put the dustpan down on a box and set my timer for five minutes. i sweep the hallway

8:05 the timer beeps and i finish sweeping. i grab the dustpan and i brush everything in

8:06 i go and use the broom handle to open the trash. its full and i freak out internally. milner is washing dishes at the sink. i shake the contents of the dustpan in the trash

8:07 i use the side of the dustpan to scrape the cobwebs and hair and lint from the broom bristles into the trash

8:08 back to room change slippers sanitize. light candle

8:09 scratch my face. i hate onions. i type

8:11 i feel like there’s dust all over me now. i hate it. i have a headache on only one side of my face again

8:13 i hear wendy exit her room and go to her bathroom down the hall

8:14 i text sam asking if he’s working. he says he is and i say on my way. i sanitize then go exit my room and change slippers

8:15 i come and sit on the floor of his room. he’s googling about pete davidson’s fake wife and her court hearing

8:16 i google if someone’s mbti’d pete davidson’s fake wife yet. they haven’t. pete davidson is an enfp. of course he is.

8:17 we try and find the christian mingle movie online

8:18 sam gets up to go to the bathroom

8:19 milner runs to get the door when they hear a knock. ben wendel is here. they talk in the entryway

8:24 i catch up on obey me. milner and ben are talking about how theyre both still reeling from very drunk st patrick’s days. sam walks back from the bathroom and closes his door. he gets to work. i turn on the sims

8:25 i text ace and kon to let me know when they are free

8:26 i update my exposure logs

8:27 start sims byebye

8:28 i crack my neck

8:44 i crack my neck again. it’s sore

9:00 milner and ben are talking about their previous relationship with maya. wendy hears maya and exits her room to go talk with the two of them. sam and i listen vaguely through the door but it’s closed and we can’t hear much. we enjoy eavesdropping though

9:04 they’re all talking about LA Pride. sam and i cringe at the gay discourse

9:05 sam and i discuss about how mimi wants us all to go to bars and stuff for LA Pride. we both don’t want to go and also know that since so many things are going to open up soon, covid numbers will shoot up too so a lot of future plans will probably have to change

9:13 theyre all talking about bruce springsteen’s podcast with barack obama about racial tension. this is an insane conversation

9:16 milner is mansplaining barack obama’s take on cultural appropriation to ben and wendy. sam and i cannot take this in his room.

9:19 ben is talking about how culture isn’t copyrightable ????

9:20 now they’re talking about afro futurism and rastafarianism. these r two white twinks.

9:21 milner is talking about latinx culture. last time they brought up latinx culture in the car i told them to shut up and not talk about it lmao.

9:22 i literally can’t tell what the point of this conversation is. i moved closer to the door so i could hear. milner is saying that they wish cultural appropriation didn’t exist so they could wear clothes they wanted to and stuff. i’m very concerned.

9:23 now theyre talking about asian culture. bestie i cant do this. bestie i can’t do this today.

9:24 ben is talking about getting kicked out a bar for being too white. i can’t do this today

9:26 ben complains that white people can’t wear dreadlocks

9:30 sam and i are still texting about the conversation outside. i text that i have to go to my room still

9:32 i go back to my room and say hi to ben and milner. i go and stand at my doorway so i can keep listening and texting sam

9:33 milner says that they have no black friends and don’t know how to fix that problem. they say they don’t want to make friends based on the color of someone’s skin but just the wording is so yikes. i’m not the one to comment on this right now.

9:34 im just at my doorframe listening. milner is saying they dont have any black friends and needs to fix the problem. i.

9:35 i finally leave my door and set my laptop on my bed. i take some chile mango out of the bag and eat it. sam is looking up irish americans because milner was talking about the oppression of the irish earlier and because the issue with pete davidson’s fake wife was started because she said her production company was going to make content about the irish

9:37 i finish eating and go sit on my bed and turn my laptop on. i sanitize

9:38 milner and ben go into their room finally. i can still vaguely hear but i dont wanna pay attention anymore.

9:39 i type down part of my day and save and exit the sims. i start a new zoom meeting

9:41 i send it to discord

9:44 kon and ace join the zoom we all have our vids on its so nice to see them

9:48 ace is sad cuz their wireless headphones stopped working. they are working on something for their id really fast and then they will share ghost stories. i fart quietly

9:49 augustina sends me a reddit video of a cringey tiktok. i respond.

9:52 ace has to go get something and i go to get some water. i change slippers and go outside my room. wendy is cooking in the kitchen.

9:53 wendy and i look at each other and immediately start cracking up. we keep talking about it. it’s so fucking funny. neither of us know how to even begin to comment on the conversation to milner and ben because we aren’t the ones who have the authority on what is right to talk about. but we all know it’s wrong and are trying to figure out what to do. right now we just crack up in disbelief

9:54 sam runs out to laugh with us. wendy and i are almost crying laughing at everything. i get water barehanded. wendy tells us she’s been crying today about why she can’t find love. i hug her. i tell her i have to go back to my room. sam says he has to study too and goes back to his room. we leave wendy to cook

9:55 i change slippers and go to my room. sam and wendy are texting in our groupchat about the convo. we are all losing our minds

9:56 i get back on zoom. ace loads up ghost stories

10:04 wendy knocks at my door and i tell her to come inside. she shares with me an email that her professor sent her after wendy asked for an extension. the professor sent her support after what happened in atlanta and asked for her to have some of her work done by monday. wendy doesn’t even know how to respond to it. i don’t have an answer for her either

10:06 wendy leaves. i join back in the call and apologize for being distracted. ace says no worries

10:10 i fart quietly again

10:11 i crack my neck. i want to sanitize my hands

10:12 i sanitize my hands

10:14 i text augustina while watching ghost stories. i also text wendy and sam. apparently milner and ben’s conversation is Still Going

10:45 we finish ghost stories. ace sets up a netflix party so we can watch riverdale. i pick my nose. the half of my face hurts again

10:49 panic abt discovery scholar


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