9:20 i wake up. i check phone and unplug

9:21 text back ace. jojo is asking to push our appointment to 2pm i say sure. i check mail suxanne sent me job offer

9:24 type

9:27 check insta message back acr and kon about dznganronpa

9:33 i compose email to frida

9:39 send

9:40 go on instagram

9:51 get off insta. type

9:52 check mail for timestamps

9:54 catch up typing. still getting used to my new phone. the size is a bit wonky for me

9:58 check hinge n reject some matches

9:59 go on obey me

10:50 finish playing obey me. lmao. sit up on bed

10:51 check insta

11:20 get off insta. was texting ace and kon at the end about attack on titan but spent the whole time on reels

11:21 lay down. back cracks. nice. this phone size is so awkward its hard to type

11:24 i get up wnd make my bed. i need to find my glasses

11:25 i grab my toiletries put on slippers and walk to the bathroom. i sit down pee and poop. still no glasses

11:26 i need to work out but i dont wanna. will work out after jojo but will do exercises before then too maybe.

11:27 i text ace about danganronpa

11:28 i check insta. augustina is going through a lot. i need to finish coloring her some stickers

11:32 i get up wipe flush wash hands

11:33 i brush teeth. battery low so i brush until it dies.

11:34 i wash face and plug in my toothbrush charger and charge my toothbrush. i walk outside

11:35 i go back to my room and put on my face oil. i go to my bed

11:36 i find my glasses on the floor by my nightstand. i wipe them put them on walk outside then walk back into my room and take off my slippers

11:37 i grab my lqptop put on my slippers and sit down at the kitchen table

11:38 i open up my mail and look at suzanne’s email. i read it thoroughly

11:41 i text mama about sick time being accrued.

11:42 i forward her the email. i go back to reading my letter

11:45 telemarketer call. i hang up on it

11:49 i look at jnco’s website

11:51 mama says its not coming in to her yahoo email and to try gmail. i send it to gmail

11:52 i go on instagram

11:55 i get off instagram mama says it looks good. she sends it to papa for him to look over.

11:56 i look at a photo of papa and i. my arm is so fat. i hate myself

11:57 mama texts me congratulations. i say thank you

11:58 i look at shorts on my phone

12:03 i finish. i go to openthedoor on my laptop

12:56 been online shopping. havent bought anything. waiting for first paycheck and then to go through the clothes i currently own. have to donate stuff that hasn’t fit me since T.

12:57 i check mail. frida says no worries about the internship

12:58 i check instagram again. i need to lose weight. then i can buy clothes i like. rn im too fat to wear cute clothes. cant fit into any brands i like because they’re all meant for super tiny waists and hips. im not built like that. im built wide

1:00 sam sends me a meme. i heart it. how do i lose weight. im gonna work out a bit but that’s for muscle not weight. im trying to eat healthy too and eat less. idk.

1:03 i sign the employment offer

1:04 i email it back to suzanne

1:05 i email back frida saying thank you.

1:06 gonna drink water

1:07 i get my water glass and get up from the table. i go get water and drink it

1:08 i get a pot and fill it with water and place it on the stove. im gonna make pasta. i know i just said i need to lose weight but i really want to treat myself for getting a job !!

1:09 i do some pushups

1:10 i do ten. gonna take a break then do more. i havent worked out all weekend. i need to get back into it. all i did was eat instead. i go back to my room take off slippers and plank

1:12 finish. situps

1:15 crunches

1:16 finish. trying to stop before i feel my back take over. i check my mail

1:17 i do more crunches. i try n do a leg lift but my abs are not rockin with me. i need to give them a minute

1:18 i check instagram. ace and kon are talking abt pretty privilege

1:19 i go outside put on slippers. the water is boiling. i salt it and put in the pasta. i eat a noodle

1:20 i go looking for my phone and find it under the pasta box. i type stuff down

1:22 i eat another noodle. gonn practice touching kitchen sink

1:23 finish. feels like a 2 and then now a 0. doing ok !!! trash can time

1:24 i touch the inside of the lid and i fix the trash can bag then put my hands on my face. freakjng out but not letting it stop me. my hands feel awful. ugly gross burning. calming myself down. spam risk call

1:25 the spam call leaves a message about my nonexistent mortgage lmao.

1:26 i want to wash my hands but i force myself to eat a noodle instead. no compulsions allowed

1:30 the pasta finishes. i drain it and put on olive oil lemon pepper and cheese

1:31 i set it down on the kitchen table to eat.

1:32 i eat

1:38 i finish eating and put my pot in the sink. i pull out my leftover flan, get a fork, and enjoy

1:40 i finish. food reminds me of hannibal. i lose some of my appetite lmao

1:51 ive been on instagram. i have no motivation for anything

1:55 i wash my dishes. the dishwasher is clean and i should unload it now that mimi is gone.

1:59 i put away all the glasses. almost time for psychic call

aeries gemini libra sagittarius pigs

libra dogs

taurus scorpio leo rat good for me




bad signs

leo rooster horse




even tempered has funny side. doesnt like drama.

3:22 the call dropped. she calls me back

3:40 we end. i love her. i text her my email

3:41 jojo calls again. she asks me to tell my mom that she wants to do a reading for her. i say i will see. i know mama hates psychics

3:51 i order a chocolate bar for augustina from my favorite chocolate place in idyllwild. i forget to order something for myself lol

3:52 i text back jojo. she is wonderful

3:53 i text tio junior about my psychic reading

3:56 we talk about mama having a reading next. i say im unsure of how cool with it she will be. i check mail but no email from jojo yet

4:14 mimi is mad at LA cancelling pride again. i say it makes sense

4:17 she’s still annoyed and calls it BS

4:22 i google and post a fuckton of minion memes onto mentos. so bored. i go on insta casually for a bit after that

4:37 i text back mimi in the gc. im tired of her mouthing covid conspiracies lmao

4:47 on insta. gonna watch hannibal i think. another lazy day. waiting to send augustina’s package til after the chocolate arrives here

4:50 i remember i have a vibrator. gonna use it

4:51 its not charged. i set it to charge

4:52 i go outside put on slippers find charger go to my room charge my vibrator. i guess ill watch hannibal in the meantime

5:02 i finish unloading and reloading the dishwasher. i also put away everything in the drying rack. i go to the bathroom sit down pee

5:03 my grad images are available. i look so sad LMAO. idk what to do with the one image

5:07 check insta briefly

5:08 get up wipe flush wash hands. shave my face briefly

5:09 finish. getting urges to clean bathroom and dishwasher. i leave to my room take off slippers. put on face oil

5:10 i sit on my bed. hannibal on phone time

5:11 jamie texts me that kyle is coming to fuck lettuce. she needs to dtr so bad lmao its been like seven months

5:12 i check instagram. how do i let augustina know i care abt her !!! shes going through so much rn. want to be there for her.

5:27 instead of watch hannibal i played obey me

5:31 i masturbate with my vibrator. what a great invention

5:33 i check instagram

5:34 i put on slippers go to bathroom and clean my vibrator. i cant tell if i like penetrative sex or not anymore. whole body feeling weird lately idk. i look at my body in the mirror. i hate it

5:35 i come back tqke off slippers put vibrator to charge more

5:36 anan asks me what i use for my website i say cargo collective they say thank you i say no problem. they send me a photo of a place called Rudy’s Plants. i say woah and check insta but exit out immediately

5:37 i get under my blanket on top of my covers

5:38 i fart. my vagina hurts. i havent used my vibrator in a long time.

5:51 im watching hannibal. texting jamie about graduation

5:52 text anan too

6:38 wendy arrives i think. i pause hannibal

6:53 i change my clothes. i plug my curling iron but dont turn it on. excited for party tnite. its all i have going on today. my pants fit but rnt loose how i want. i need to lose more weight they dig into my fat a bit. the elastic is too snug

7:06 on instagram. do i start my makeup ? i have done nothing all day. tomorrow ill update more daily logs. i wanna get all of april done at least. and then start with cataloguing fanart for ballad of sexual dependency. i also wanna finish aftereffects sim

7:12 i go on hinge. i have a new like but i dont make a choice yet. im so tired ive done nothing

7:19 i catch up on obey me. i should do my makeup to feel hot !!

7:23 im wearing my contacts in the wrong eyes. oops. i went to put them on im back in my room now. gotta fix that

7:24 i text wendy asking what time we r pregaming she says 9. i say epic

7:26 finish. much better. back in my room nkw

7:27 texting anan. they sent me a video but its hard to see so they send it to me on fb messenger

7:28 u light a candle and go to messenger. its a video of a sim drowning. i reply back YEA

7:29 i fart. i see wendy enter her room. gonna do my makeup

7:35 if there’s anything my makeup is telling me it’s that i need to exfoliate. i shouldve done so before this !!!! ughhhhh its too late. hopefully there’s no glaring close up lights on me

8:02 finish. i feel like a clown. i decide against doing my hair

8:20 been on insta. augustina n i plan on doing scream queens soon

9:17 everyones arriving for the pregame. we all look hot. i feel fat

9:26 i sit down at table. i left my weed pen at home i think

9:56 listening to tig ol bitties. incredible. i am im fact drunk. we should leave soon for the party i think. typing on this phone is so fun i finally figured it out. a lot easier than on my old phone. im drunk

9:59 i wish i was barb.

10:13 in fryft on our way over. we r on our way to the party. it better b good or else i got drunk for nothing. in car on the right eloise and wendy are on our left.

10:14 we are waiting to make a left. im excited to see everyone ! it better be fun

10:16 we arrive i feel fat

10:19 the party is kind of boring. inside. hanging out with jamie and kyle cuz im scared of people. gonna stop typing but its fun to type to music