12:54 caught up obey me. watching the departed

12:55 got high. celebrating

12:59 texting abt byakuya togami

1:35 departed ends. wendy and jamie loved it. sam thinks it wqs wild

1:41 wendy goes to her room and jamie goes to bed. i wash my dish from cake andput it in stack for dishwasher. i go to bathroom sit down pee

1:42 get up wipe flush go wash hands brush teeth

1:43 finish put in retainer. put on testosterone

1:44 wash hands go to room take off slippers

1:45 change out of pants put clothes away from today. take a bit to take off necklace

1:50 finally get into bed. im working out tomorrow for sure i feel like a whale. i want my wii fit to be projd of me

1:52 i fart. i figured out the html yesterday so now i need to help tomorrow and pray it works

2:10 its so hot out. set alarms goodnght

2:32 o


2:33 been on laptop messaging slack and going on senior scramble. 87 match requests in under an hour. insane. we r killing the game. i send one to caroline just in case but that’s my one send out for rn.

2:34 i check insta then check slack

2:35 91 match requests. i need to figure out what to cook. might make quesadillas


3:06 i get my tattoo supplies ready and bring my sanitizer and gloves over. this makes sense for hygiene for tatting so im not feeling compulsive

3:07 gonna put on hannibal and start tatting


4:20 gpt all i needed to get done done. gonna prioritize my paper next. going to bed now. caught up on obey me. took meds whatever. gmite

8:40 foll put assessment sleep tome


10:38 OK !!! fully awake out in kitchen. took a nap and ate a nutri grain bar

10:39 get and drink water trasj can tome

10:42 finish. gonna do everything for 2 miniyes not three today to catch up lmao. 3 2 2 four urges. i go and sit by the puzzle but don’t work on it.

10:44 get up go to sink. its time

10:47 finish 1 2 2. i wash my mug from yesterday. i email back matt stromberg. cant forget check list for him. sit down on stool by sink

10:49 get up toilet time go to bathroom

10:51 finish 1 3 1. sam walks out of his room and i exit the bathroom to chat with him. i ask if he needs the bathroom and he says no he’s just making food

10:53 shower. six urges

10:55 4 2. feels terrible but im ok. three urges. four more. i wanna sanitize my feet so bad. check insta

10:57 go to laundry room dryer

11:00 finish 0 3 0. sam lets me know he’s gonma run the dishwasher

11:02 dryer again

11:04 0 1 2. fpur urges. i tally up how long it would take for three minute habituations and breaks and its 1 hr 45 min. so if i get three rounds in ill have caught up

11:06 shower

11:09 finish 5 4. wanna kms i hate it. six urges. i hate it i still smell trash on me i still smell it. check insta. wednesday kim followed me back

11:11 she liked my messagws. toilet seat time

11:14 finish 3 3 3. feels bad man. four urges. hands feel so dirty !!! so dirty so dirty.

11:15 check messages and post a meme sam sent me to instagram.

11:16 back out in kitchen sink time. sink burns me trash can instwas. sam used hot water

11:19 3 2 3. five urges two more when i end. smells so fuckinf bad oh my god. i sit down at kitchen table

11:20 check insta

11:21 check sink still burning hot. trash again

11:22 i scratch my crotch over my pants and scratch my ear

11:23 finish 4 2 4. seven urges. i feel it i feel it i feel it. i go sit by the puzzle just to hang

11:26 i catch up more on obey me and walk to the bathroom. shower time

11:29 4 4. six urges three more. feels awful. its cuz the rugs r also wet

11:30 fuck it toilet seat time

11:32 3 3 3. feels bad man. four urges. hands feel terrible. three urgles.

11:33 i check instagram. kon sent a danganronpa meme to ace and i. i smell like trash rn its on my hands

11:34 dryer tkme

11:36 finish check sink 3 2 2. still burning hot. have to wait. go back to bathroom wash handa fonna make pasta

11:38 i go to kitchen get a pot fill water put to stove salt water. go back to room take off slippers gonna change clothes




2:03 raced around made pasta joined group went to class but didnt have enuff time to present cuz i forgot abt matt today. lied n said it was for therapy why i had to go early. so tired lmao. at sanctuary rn. plugged in laptop. waiting for matt in entrance. crying inside

2:04 the good thing is that because i had no time now i have more time to work on my project

2:35 matt leaves. i showed him the exhibition. we talked about my piece a lot and my experiences writing down my logs and my relationship with my sim and my ocd

2:40 i go downstairs and take selfie in front of the mirror

2:42 i post a photo to my insta story

2:45 i post a video of my to my story

3:01 sitting down on the second floor on instagram. decompressing

3:08 slack going crazy rn. i need to write my paper

(4:30 me going thru texts that indicate i was outside before i say down to type down the few minutes)

4:14 i text augustina that its raining with the sun out

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4:16 was working on my papwr have all my sources now. saw pastor and another pastor upstairs and told them about my work. i went downstairs saw allegra who’s giving a talk with two people and showing them around

4:17 i went outside for a bit for my interview but got cold so i went back inside. the two pastors are having an intense talk by me. trying not to listen

4:18 mike is playing with his kid in the yard. im sitting on a bench near the entryway and am typing stuff down. bad with timestamps today but yes

4:20 email back annie cuz apparently i hadnt emailed back. i say yes thursday at 2:30 is good to meet. overbooking myself yet again but who fucking cares anymore. writing my paper all tonight and doing essay tomorrow hopefully / also editing final draft of paper. i can do this. i can make this happen.

4:21 theyre talking abt the show. its nothing bad he just wishes he did more for the show. i hope he feels ok !!!

4:22 textinf with augustina abt what a normie is. i decide a normie is anyone i dont think is cool.

4:23 im so fucking cold but my cloak is covering my laptop rn and i dont wanna make it visible with people in the gallery. seven minutes til interview. going over what i need to talk abt. i dont know what i need to talk abt. i will figure it out. i am smart

4:24 walking outside to the pqrking lot again. i find a sunny spot and stand there. feels warm. vitamin d.  there are ppl working at the side of the parking lot. i didnt notice them before.

4:25 does god hate me ? i dont know. i sit down on the ground in the sun. my back cracks as i get comfy against the wall

4:26 theres a chainsaw happening. i should move somewhere else so theres less noise

4:27 i sit in the parking lot against one of the cement bumper things im

forgetting the name

4:28 i hear kids running out. i need to find a new quiet space. i hope theyre leaving. the mom comes outside too

4:29 its no longer raining. i enjoy the sun

4:31 writinf out more of my day waiting for phone call. i check my mail.

4:32 i hope she calls soon

4:51 she called and i answered and now the interview is done. she will contact me for a zoom interview soon. i respond to schelsey’s text about her being on her way and taylor’s text abt class. no idea if we have class today but idc.  there was a random guy in the parking lot in his car but luckily i wasnt paranoid. he wasnt bad looking lmao

4:54 i text more with taylor abt class and i text augustina abt facetiming later

4:55 i reenter the gallery. gonna get my cloak cuz im cold

4:56 am upstairs. mike calls out to me and asks if its just me i say yes. he says he will be in his studio

4:57 text taylor more i get my cloak from on top of my laptop and put it on

4:58 schelsey texys shes here i say On my way!

6:42 end with schelsey. went downstairs said hi to marisol and the guy from before is her friend. p epic. we all exit together. im back in my car augustina and i texted and we r gonna call tomorrow instead. good cuz im tired n need to get gas.

6:43 marisol and her friend drive off and leave. im here still typing

6:50 typing a lot of people gonma drive home now

7:46 home in bathroom took off contacts sat doen pee. touched toilet seat beforehand for maintenance. went to get gas at costco alhambra and got three gallons so ten bucks. waiting til i can go to hb and use the fob.

7:47 so tired n hungry. gonna write a more detailed outline and then start the essay after pizza

7:48 i check messages. no eta as to when theyll be back. wendy texts me abt sending the css to someone to ask abt the button

7:49 get up wipe flush wash hands

7:50 walk outside to kitchen. type and check insta nothing new

7:51 get water

7:52 might nap. sit at beige couch. go on insta

8:19 i text wendy asking where they are

8:20 sam comes in with the pizza and everyone slowly trickles in

9:07 mimi and sam jamie wendy theo are back we ate pizza. i know all the words to same love and thrift shop so jamie sam and i rap macklemore for everyone. immaculate vibes

9:08 i come sit down at the beige couch. theo hugs everyone and says goodbye

9:43 been on insta. fart. Julián texted gonna see

10:25 been working on my paper checked insta briefly. this paper feels like shit but i dont care i jusy want to pass the class

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