Rudy Falagán SUNDAY - MAY 9
one more day. good things have been happening ! might take full vacation idk when ill be back. probably tomorrow
9:28 i wake ip check insta
9:45~ go on hinge
9:53 finish hinge back on insta
9:56 decide to try and take notes today. im so tired i had difficulty sleeping. walked two miles yesterday n my legs r so sore. might work out today but in a little cuz they ache pretty badly
9:58 i look st myself in the phone camera
10:00 go on obey me
10:06 catch up. i have to decide which event to play
10:07 go on instq but close it immediately. i got an internship offer from 18th st art center. im waiting til monday to accept
10:10 on insta
10:13 i respond to a message on hinge
10:15 i forgot how much i write if im doing jack shit on my phone. this motivates me more to do real things. thats good i think
10:37 i zoned out a bit and hugged my pillow for a while. i sit up in bed
10:40 i check instagram
11:04 been on twitter looking at snl tweets.
11:25 i was looking at reels of hot people. motivation to work out. i get up and change into workout clothes
11:26 put on slippers walk to bathroom sit down pee. i notice all my bananas have browned while i was away. fuck
11:27 get up wipe flush wash hands. all my bathroom stuff is in my room so i will bring it later n brush my teeth.
11:28 replace toilet paper roll. go outside throw bananas away
11:29 go to room take off slippers get socks. go to end of the hallway
11:30 put on shoes
11:31 grab everything take it outside. type
11:33 gonna stretch. gonna play ag cook
11:38 my muscles r tired from walking so theyre not very flexible at all today. sore. gonna try n do high knees
11:40 did them. squats
11:41 finish. so tired. pushups
11:42 finish. cant go that low yet but i just try n not push too hard. take time in between to make sure my back is in the right position
11:43 mountain climbers
11:45 finish. break before plank
11:46 plank
11:47 finish. lunges
11:48 finish hip raises
11:49 finish. didnt do single leg cuz i wanna save energy for rest of workout
11:50 situps
11:51 finish
11:52 crunches
11:53 finish. deciding if i want to do burpees or not
11:54 ill do a few. finish. did 10
11:55 single leg arm raise idk but im standing up
11:56 finish.
11:57 leg raises
11.58 finish. im v careful cuz i feel my lower back kick in so i take my time n make sure i use my qbs. i keep my legs higher in the air to help too. ill get lower soon
11:59 biceps
12:00 triceps
12:01 finish. open chest pull thing
12:02 finish. only do a but cuz i feel my neck start to kick in. gonna stretch a bit more
12:05 a bug lands on my hands while i do the butterfly stretch but i just gently brush it off. incredible !!
12:07 i get up i pick everything up. roll up mat go inside
12:08 take off shoes and socks put on slippers in hallway once i set down stuff
12:09 go to room put socks in laundry hamper get back of toiletries. go to bathroom bring towel
12:10 wash hands put away toiletries. take off shirt look at tattoo. i took off saniderm this weekend. one part the ink didnt stick but the rest healed well
12:11 my toothbrush is in the other bag. go get it turn off ag cook
12:13 back. my toothbrush WAS in the bag but my toothpaste n stuff was not so it was worth the trip anyways. i close the toilet lid and sit on it for a little. exhausted. im glad im working out again
12:15 i call mama and wish her a happy mothers day
12:16 i text Julián happy birthday. i go on instagram. gia responded to my story where i ask what it means if augustina got me a nintendo switch lite for a graduation present. gia says shes down bad for me i say she better be. i know she isnt but i can dream. i think it would be fun if augustina was
12:20 i posted more elon musk memes to mentos n then i get off insta and type
12:22 go on obey me
12:24 cqtch up on obey me. ok gonna brush teeth finally
12:27 finish. turn on shower put stuff on shower rack
12:28 take off clothes
12:29 water hot change slipper get in
12:36 get out. razor still isnt working well so i just shave underarms and bottom half of legs. i put on my body oil and body butter
12:39 finish. type
12:41 change slippers go to room. i feel my thighs squish as i walk. i want to kill myself. its the worst feeling in the world i want to cry why am i so fat what happened
12:42 get dressed. eat a mango chile
12:43 make bed
12:44 organize a few things. put on slippers go outside get water glass. feel my thighs wanna cry
12:45 get water but its empty so i get a glass of milk instead. the cap falls to the ground i pick it up and put it back on
12:46 drink milk and sit down. type
12:48 fill brita with watwr put in fridge
12:49 i dont want to eat but i know i have to. i get the spinach tortellini out of the fridge and put a pot of water on the stove
12:50 i sit down n snack on them while waiting for the water to boil
12:51 i go to my room set my fitbit to charge
12:52 back in kitchen got myself a glass of water
12:53 snacking on tortellini. why is it that whenever i eat i feel fat
12:55 im on instagram. i check water. i might eat half the tortellini and save the rest for later cuz im gonna do something with mama and papa tonight for mothers day
12:57 i go stand over the water. sam comes out of his room and says good morning. he asks what the plastic bag is and i say my toiletries. he goes into the bathroom
12:58 i put my tortellini in the pot. i remember im having steak tonight so i cant eat all of this but watch me eat all of it. fatass
1:00 sam flushes the toilet and doesnt wash his hands. just exits. he goes to the living room and sits down and talks abt elon musk on snl
1:02 i get half the tortellini into a bowl and drain the other half and leave it in the pot. i get olive oil pepper and cheese and put it on top of the tortellini
1:04 i sit down and eat
1:06 finish. hungry i want more. gonna sit with it a bit
1:08 i check fitbit. it looks like im burning enough calories to debate myself to eat the rest. but im gonna sit on it some more
1:09 i check my mail then messages
1:10 i check my calendar. nothing new for any of them. im still hungry
1:11 i get myself the rest of the tortellini. gonna take time eating n stop when full
1:15 i eat the rest of the tortellini. fatass. but i feel full finally
1:17 i get more water n open a few apps but close right away
1:19 i pick up. i ask sam if the dishwasher is clean he says yes. i put my dish to the side after i rinse it and then wash my pot
1:20 back in room slippers off on bed blanket around my shoulders. moved my laptop to bed gonna read more higurashi i think
1:23 check hinge respond back to a message. idk why im on here
1:25 im on insta but i get a hinge message. new match. ill message back
1:32 i message the person on hinge a bit. idk what im doing. i just wish augustina was in love with me. i wish i was a cis boy so she would like me. what if she hates me when we meet irl like just. hates me
1:54 on reels staring at hot people again
2:16 i dont remember whaqt i did. i think i downloaded bricks and balls and started playing that. i texted papa
2:19 i got up and got dressed. pants dont fit cuz of hips. wanna cry.
2:23 texting ace and kon abt attack on titan. getting resdy to head out
2:27 out in yard brush dust off scrape. it’s not that bad at all. ill fix it up a bit n itll help me out just with the tiny scratches
2:28 in car. texting ace and kon abt akasaka mamoru
2:33 ok gonna drive
2:34 put on music drive. play lil nas x but then switch to asshole by internet girl on loop
2:56 music cuts off for some reason
3:20 arrive at trader joes. check texts
3:21 someone sends a photo through Julián’s number. its a stranger. i ask who it is because im convinced Julián is pranking me. he doesnt give up the joke. i don’t respond any more
3:22 i text papa that i’m at trader joes and am going to pick up potatoes brie and tiramisu
3:28 i finish at trader joes. feel fat
3:29 text papa back. he asks me to go to ralphs to get chives i say ok
3:35 arrive at ralphs
3:36 message Julián on insta asking if he’s pranking me
3:41 trying to find chives. text papa that one area is out but im finding another. i ask a guy and he points me in the right direction i say thank you
3:45 i find the chives and i text papa. i ask if theres anything else he needs. i start checking out before he gets back to me because idk why
3:46 i finish paying. he says no nothing.
3:49 i exit ralphs and walk to the car. i text papa im on my way home
3:54 arrive home. go to open door
3:56 get inside and text papa. he comes out from the guest room. talk with papa. it was penny’s car i scraped. we r gonna pay for her buffing it out.
4:00 we go look at my car and penny’s car. i can’t tell which scrape is from her car on mine. she has a tiny scrape on hers. papa says not to worry
4:02 go back inside. i take off my shoes. we plan out the prep for the food. mama is coming back around 6:30. shes with tio junior and now is with tia alexa
4:06 head upstairs
4:07 upstairs laying on bed with bo. i text Julián more. it was not him texting me this morning. we r both so confused. he texts me on his phone again and i get his message. so weird.
4:11 i wish him happy birthday and i send a photo of bo. go on insta
4:27 get off instagram. went on reels again. i keep comparing myself to 15 year olds
4:28 go to bathroom sit down pee poop
4:29 go through texts n type everything out
4:40 go on insta
4:42 get up wipe flush wash hands
4:43 back on bed plug in phone move bo to the side so i can lay down. baby boy
4:46 type some more out. i want to watch hannibal
4:54 play bricks n balls instead
6:07 helping cook. slowing down a bit. mama gets back eta 6:50
6:14 we lay out bread and cheese and meat. i cut some slices of bread and eat it with brie
6:16 i check insta and then mail. if im not careful ill eat more bread. my appetite is insane
6:17 i check the blue cheese dressing i made and go sit on the couch. my dad asks if im driving home tonight i say yes. he says he will wait to serve me wine then
6:18 he goes to eat some bread and cheese. bo comes down to join us
6:20 i go and eat more bread and cheese in the kitchen papa comes out
6:25 we talk abt snl. my dad loved it. i think that’s hilarious
9:28 i wake ip check insta
9:45~ go on hinge
9:53 finish hinge back on insta
9:56 decide to try and take notes today. im so tired i had difficulty sleeping. walked two miles yesterday n my legs r so sore. might work out today but in a little cuz they ache pretty badly
9:58 i look st myself in the phone camera
10:00 go on obey me
10:06 catch up. i have to decide which event to play
10:07 go on instq but close it immediately. i got an internship offer from 18th st art center. im waiting til monday to accept
10:10 on insta
10:13 i respond to a message on hinge
10:15 i forgot how much i write if im doing jack shit on my phone. this motivates me more to do real things. thats good i think
10:37 i zoned out a bit and hugged my pillow for a while. i sit up in bed
10:40 i check instagram
11:04 been on twitter looking at snl tweets.
11:25 i was looking at reels of hot people. motivation to work out. i get up and change into workout clothes
11:26 put on slippers walk to bathroom sit down pee. i notice all my bananas have browned while i was away. fuck
11:27 get up wipe flush wash hands. all my bathroom stuff is in my room so i will bring it later n brush my teeth.
11:28 replace toilet paper roll. go outside throw bananas away
11:29 go to room take off slippers get socks. go to end of the hallway
11:30 put on shoes
11:31 grab everything take it outside. type
11:33 gonna stretch. gonna play ag cook
11:38 my muscles r tired from walking so theyre not very flexible at all today. sore. gonna try n do high knees
11:40 did them. squats
11:41 finish. so tired. pushups
11:42 finish. cant go that low yet but i just try n not push too hard. take time in between to make sure my back is in the right position
11:43 mountain climbers
11:45 finish. break before plank
11:46 plank
11:47 finish. lunges
11:48 finish hip raises
11:49 finish. didnt do single leg cuz i wanna save energy for rest of workout
11:50 situps
11:51 finish
11:52 crunches
11:53 finish. deciding if i want to do burpees or not
11:54 ill do a few. finish. did 10
11:55 single leg arm raise idk but im standing up
11:56 finish.
11:57 leg raises
11.58 finish. im v careful cuz i feel my lower back kick in so i take my time n make sure i use my qbs. i keep my legs higher in the air to help too. ill get lower soon
11:59 biceps
12:00 triceps
12:01 finish. open chest pull thing
12:02 finish. only do a but cuz i feel my neck start to kick in. gonna stretch a bit more
12:05 a bug lands on my hands while i do the butterfly stretch but i just gently brush it off. incredible !!
12:07 i get up i pick everything up. roll up mat go inside
12:08 take off shoes and socks put on slippers in hallway once i set down stuff
12:09 go to room put socks in laundry hamper get back of toiletries. go to bathroom bring towel
12:10 wash hands put away toiletries. take off shirt look at tattoo. i took off saniderm this weekend. one part the ink didnt stick but the rest healed well
12:11 my toothbrush is in the other bag. go get it turn off ag cook
12:13 back. my toothbrush WAS in the bag but my toothpaste n stuff was not so it was worth the trip anyways. i close the toilet lid and sit on it for a little. exhausted. im glad im working out again
12:15 i call mama and wish her a happy mothers day
12:16 i text Julián happy birthday. i go on instagram. gia responded to my story where i ask what it means if augustina got me a nintendo switch lite for a graduation present. gia says shes down bad for me i say she better be. i know she isnt but i can dream. i think it would be fun if augustina was
12:20 i posted more elon musk memes to mentos n then i get off insta and type
12:22 go on obey me
12:24 cqtch up on obey me. ok gonna brush teeth finally
12:27 finish. turn on shower put stuff on shower rack
12:28 take off clothes
12:29 water hot change slipper get in
12:36 get out. razor still isnt working well so i just shave underarms and bottom half of legs. i put on my body oil and body butter
12:39 finish. type
12:41 change slippers go to room. i feel my thighs squish as i walk. i want to kill myself. its the worst feeling in the world i want to cry why am i so fat what happened
12:42 get dressed. eat a mango chile
12:43 make bed
12:44 organize a few things. put on slippers go outside get water glass. feel my thighs wanna cry
12:45 get water but its empty so i get a glass of milk instead. the cap falls to the ground i pick it up and put it back on
12:46 drink milk and sit down. type
12:48 fill brita with watwr put in fridge
12:49 i dont want to eat but i know i have to. i get the spinach tortellini out of the fridge and put a pot of water on the stove
12:50 i sit down n snack on them while waiting for the water to boil
12:51 i go to my room set my fitbit to charge
12:52 back in kitchen got myself a glass of water
12:53 snacking on tortellini. why is it that whenever i eat i feel fat
12:55 im on instagram. i check water. i might eat half the tortellini and save the rest for later cuz im gonna do something with mama and papa tonight for mothers day
12:57 i go stand over the water. sam comes out of his room and says good morning. he asks what the plastic bag is and i say my toiletries. he goes into the bathroom
12:58 i put my tortellini in the pot. i remember im having steak tonight so i cant eat all of this but watch me eat all of it. fatass
1:00 sam flushes the toilet and doesnt wash his hands. just exits. he goes to the living room and sits down and talks abt elon musk on snl
1:02 i get half the tortellini into a bowl and drain the other half and leave it in the pot. i get olive oil pepper and cheese and put it on top of the tortellini
1:04 i sit down and eat
1:06 finish. hungry i want more. gonna sit with it a bit
1:08 i check fitbit. it looks like im burning enough calories to debate myself to eat the rest. but im gonna sit on it some more
1:09 i check my mail then messages
1:10 i check my calendar. nothing new for any of them. im still hungry
1:11 i get myself the rest of the tortellini. gonna take time eating n stop when full
1:15 i eat the rest of the tortellini. fatass. but i feel full finally
1:17 i get more water n open a few apps but close right away
1:19 i pick up. i ask sam if the dishwasher is clean he says yes. i put my dish to the side after i rinse it and then wash my pot
1:20 back in room slippers off on bed blanket around my shoulders. moved my laptop to bed gonna read more higurashi i think
1:23 check hinge respond back to a message. idk why im on here
1:25 im on insta but i get a hinge message. new match. ill message back
1:32 i message the person on hinge a bit. idk what im doing. i just wish augustina was in love with me. i wish i was a cis boy so she would like me. what if she hates me when we meet irl like just. hates me
1:54 on reels staring at hot people again
2:16 i dont remember whaqt i did. i think i downloaded bricks and balls and started playing that. i texted papa
2:19 i got up and got dressed. pants dont fit cuz of hips. wanna cry.
2:23 texting ace and kon abt attack on titan. getting resdy to head out
2:27 out in yard brush dust off scrape. it’s not that bad at all. ill fix it up a bit n itll help me out just with the tiny scratches
2:28 in car. texting ace and kon abt akasaka mamoru
2:33 ok gonna drive
2:34 put on music drive. play lil nas x but then switch to asshole by internet girl on loop
2:56 music cuts off for some reason
3:20 arrive at trader joes. check texts
3:21 someone sends a photo through Julián’s number. its a stranger. i ask who it is because im convinced Julián is pranking me. he doesnt give up the joke. i don’t respond any more
3:22 i text papa that i’m at trader joes and am going to pick up potatoes brie and tiramisu
3:28 i finish at trader joes. feel fat
3:29 text papa back. he asks me to go to ralphs to get chives i say ok
3:35 arrive at ralphs
3:36 message Julián on insta asking if he’s pranking me
3:41 trying to find chives. text papa that one area is out but im finding another. i ask a guy and he points me in the right direction i say thank you
3:45 i find the chives and i text papa. i ask if theres anything else he needs. i start checking out before he gets back to me because idk why
3:46 i finish paying. he says no nothing.
3:49 i exit ralphs and walk to the car. i text papa im on my way home
3:54 arrive home. go to open door
3:56 get inside and text papa. he comes out from the guest room. talk with papa. it was penny’s car i scraped. we r gonna pay for her buffing it out.
4:00 we go look at my car and penny’s car. i can’t tell which scrape is from her car on mine. she has a tiny scrape on hers. papa says not to worry
4:02 go back inside. i take off my shoes. we plan out the prep for the food. mama is coming back around 6:30. shes with tio junior and now is with tia alexa
4:06 head upstairs
4:07 upstairs laying on bed with bo. i text Julián more. it was not him texting me this morning. we r both so confused. he texts me on his phone again and i get his message. so weird.
4:11 i wish him happy birthday and i send a photo of bo. go on insta
4:27 get off instagram. went on reels again. i keep comparing myself to 15 year olds
4:28 go to bathroom sit down pee poop
4:29 go through texts n type everything out
4:40 go on insta
4:42 get up wipe flush wash hands
4:43 back on bed plug in phone move bo to the side so i can lay down. baby boy
4:46 type some more out. i want to watch hannibal
4:54 play bricks n balls instead
6:07 helping cook. slowing down a bit. mama gets back eta 6:50
6:14 we lay out bread and cheese and meat. i cut some slices of bread and eat it with brie
6:16 i check insta and then mail. if im not careful ill eat more bread. my appetite is insane
6:17 i check the blue cheese dressing i made and go sit on the couch. my dad asks if im driving home tonight i say yes. he says he will wait to serve me wine then
6:18 he goes to eat some bread and cheese. bo comes down to join us
6:20 i go and eat more bread and cheese in the kitchen papa comes out
6:25 we talk abt snl. my dad loved it. i think that’s hilarious