gonna start in june i think. weird dreams today. had one where i was driving fast trying to catch up with my mom. there was a part where i was designing characters to attack people and one was a shapeshifter so i was making different people in the character creator and then trying to animate it. the clothes were all black but i made the outfits different for each character. the main body looked like fred armisen but cartoon. something happened then im driving. i forgot a lot of the first half of the dream.




then i had to go i wanted to make the outfits uniform but i didnt have time i met up with my family. my dad said something and then we were driving. at first he was in the car with me having me catch up with mama. we were driving really fast. we go over a hill its a freeway with a lot of lanes it is nighttime. its been flat and mainly empty. when we go over the hill there’s a lot more cars all braking so i have to break really hard. i almost crash into the car in front of me it looks like a beige sedan. its an older one its very rectangular n the back lights r very rectangular too.

i drive around to the side and the windows r open on the car and its a younger justin bieber and some friends. i yell out “justin bieber? nice to see you, im not stalking you goodbye” and i drive ahead. i hear laughing and him yelling to come back. i slow down and we drive together until the freeway ends snd we are at a stoplight. my dad is still in the car i think. justin and i chat.

we park next to an open field its daytime and we start walking. i leave the car. it turns into a park. the road is downhill and there are a lot of rolling hills. there is a great view. i wish i could draw it properly but its slipping from my memory slowly rn

we talk about nothing for a while. his friends r rlly funny. eventually we reach a fork in the windy road. it changes to a sidewalk. three people show up. theres a girl with long blonde straight hair who i remember she is wearing a white spaghetti strap top with bows tying the straps together and blue jeans. she looks at us quizzically and chats with us while the two people stay back a bit.




she asks where im from i say huntington beach. she asks the harbor and i say no i wish. i give a direction based on a landmark that doesn’t exist. she nods her head but looks unconvinced. we talk more. justin points at a turtle crawling in the grass on the other side of the road we are by and ask if its hers. she says yes and she got it at the spcaa. i say ive heard of the place and i knew a lot of people who had turtles from there. i mention maddie stites cuz she seems like someone the girl would know. she takes a moment but then recognizes the name and nods while grimacing slightly. i nod in agreement.




we say bye to the girl and walk it is no longer a sidewalk but a park road. i say i have to get back to my family. i ask for his number to chat and he says he was gonna ask for mine because i am excellent. its exciting to have a new friend n its not a romantic scene at all. his friends laugh and yell at him to hurry up. he says nice to meet you and leaves




then i woke up







man it’s weird not writing notes immediately after finishing my dream. the habit is still definitely there. its also a habit not a compulsion for sure. it just gave my life so much more purpose when writing things down. im really depressed right now. like really depressed lmao.




im excited to start writing notes again. i think itll help me a lot. my decisions will feel more purposeful. i finished hannibal yesterday. working on finishing ace attorney investigations 2. today i am delivering a package and dropping off returns to amazon. im driving to the farther ups store cuz all the nearby ones have terrible reviews online and i want my package to be treated well. i dont want it to be held up for too long.




i jist have to get out of bed. i need to buy floss and olive oil too. and get my lamictal. my other medications are on hold and testosterone needs insurance approval. i might call st johns rn or ill do it tomorrow. it says it might take a few days.




i also smell bad i might take a shower. its so hot so im sweaty.